CHIMERA

Being 20  is good ..new hope with  a new stage..
"Stage" because  number with teen written behind them would never appear in my age.





..from the DAY we realize that our mind, body and hormones will  put us into a situation  where a  human... but only with few  changes here and there .. will so strongly captivate and bewitch  us that normal desires and aims which were so easy to be engrossed till now..would suddenly look like a bubble..

LOVE, ATTRACTION and BOYS are few topics from which I usually abstain ..may be because of my upbringing..and may be because.  at times I was busy with studies, other time with few drastic problems of life  ..that even the boys who mattered and allured me were the ones I have least cared about ..

But  as I have grown up ...Now what?


well sorry to inform ..I am down in dumps..
LOVE still.. is a CHIMERA for me..


CHIMERA.... because I have seen the general  proceedings..which normally occurs when two opposite sexes are mousetrapped..and  later they both agree that...yes we are spellbind..
I would not name it love..because love(though not experienced)..carries a great meaning,,
And attainment of the things I attach with the meaning of love..will always be a CHIMERA...

LOVE??

when two minds connect with each other so strongly that when one leaves other stops working..

when two souls connect with each other so strongly that when one wonders ,other comes to accompany..

when two hearts connect  with each other so strongly that when one stops ,other comes to pump it

But these definitions (by me ofcourse!!)  are CHIMERA..

I have seen ..even the beautiful souls in unnerving situations..when one mind connected..when one wondered..when one heart connected but the other one was busy checking and fooling around..
leading the first one to confirm that love does not exist..

Therefore 2O certainly will force me to find the mind,soul and heart ..I desire for

But to find one in the world of today is nothing more then a CHIMERA for a girl like me.........